There is nothing like the waiting time in an airport (after the panic of thinking you were super late for your flight, only to find out it is delayed) to really drive home that you are actually done with vacation. it's sortof mostly heartbreaking.
in some ways, i am still not done with vacation. i have no job looming, no place that i have to be at in the next few months (besides fury practice), and no expectations that i have to meet.
yet, i am really done with vacation. now comes the part of my trip that i have been anticipating in some ways and dreading in others - the part where i decide what i want to do after running away to europe for 2 months. i have to make decisions about where i want to live, what kind of job i want to pursue, and perhaps even think about some (at least short-term) life goals. i THINK i feel pretty calm about the next few months - it is in some ways totally terrifying to have no idea where i will be in 3 months, but it also seems really right that i am at this point right now. it is where i want to be. i like options, and i have a bunch of them right now.
it is really sad to be leaving amsterdam. everything about the last 10 days has been pretty wonderful - hanging out with tom a bunch, biking around the city (and FINALLY feeling like i have a slight handle on how to get around, though a lot of areas still look way to similar to me), showing up at becca, michael, and kate's every night and just hanging out (invited or not), lounging around Fred's grownup apartment, playing with Primavera, eating way way too many stroop waffles, and still managing to make me-time. i have made it my mission the last few days to try to get everyone here to help me find a way to come back and live for a while. The trip has definitely rekindled that desire to live in a different culture for a bit while i am still not tied down by anythign big in life.
internet time is running out. so i am off.
3 comments:
Welcome home, k80. We missed you.
So thankful you are back safe and sound, but enjoyed all your adventures in your blog! We are leaving at 3 in the morning to go to Eric's graduation on Saturday and Sarah's on Sunday for a whirlwind weekend. Cara flies in on Sunday night and Jana will pick her up. I'll be glad when she is back safe too. Love you cousin! Hugs.
Sorry about your delay. That is a bummer. I am glad you are getting back home. You were missed. We are finished with school. Yeah! Now I am gearing up for swimming lessons for 5 weeks. Don't forget to call or e-mail.
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