A Test of Willpower

I have started multiple posts the last few weeks and not finished any of them.
So tonight is a test.
can I finish?

I definitely have a lot to talk about.
I got a new part time job that now requires I actually show up every day (well - most days. I am still turning every other weekend into a longish weekend/mini vaca).
Ultimate season is finally here. And BANG is it here.
And slowly I am becoming more comfortable with my life here in Atlanta.

So...Spin. That's the name of the company I am working for. It's an ultimate apparel company. Apparel is still a very hard word for me to spell for some reason. I almost always spell it wrong on the first go-around. Small company - 3 dudes that are there basically there full time. One bookkeeper who is there 2 mornings per week. And a couple of other part time guys.
Perks:
It's an ultimate company. We sit around and talk all day about ultimate.
I like the guys I am working with.
I feel like there is a role for me there and that I could help out a bunch in the company.
it's only 2 miles from my house, so even biking in the rain (luckily just on the way home from work and not to work the other day) isn't really so bad. It's also a flattish road, which is sweet. no gigantic hills.
I actually do have to show up every day now. That's weird. But surprising helpful in creating the routine I have been craving.

Downers:
I actually do have to show up somewhere every day now. That's weird. And makes me feel slightly strange sometimes - like i should actually be in my backyard on my hammock instead.
Even though I THINK there is a role for me, I still haven't figured out what the heck it is. In some ways I feel like i have a ton of room to make it what I want. In other ways, not so much. And i haven't figured out exactly what the limitations are that will make me not have as much control as i want.
It's still only a part time job. Part of me is very ready to be diving into something full time. And that just hasn't developed yet.

So...yeah...that's the job.

Ultimate:
Suddenly blew up.
Last weekend was the Ozone mixer, plus ultimate league on Saturday (think ultimate 10-5). plus goaltimate on Sunday. Tuesdays are womens goalty. and it looks like we have finally gotten enough women together to keep that going the next few weeks til summer league starts. plus, we're now doing a workout before goalty. talk about brutal tuesday. wednesdays are skills/drills. something i am running for area women who are interested in actually improving certain skills, thinking about footwork, etc. It's been interesting how much I have thought about it this week. I have never been a strategist or really even thought too much about WHY we do drills. Last year i thought about it a lot, but then i felt like almost everyone on the team had way less experience than me and way less interest. now i am actually thinking about drills for people that have more experience than me and have thought about ultimate much more than i have. it's a little intimidating. should be good though. and it only goes a few more weeks.
Tomorrow I leave for Austin for my first tournament with Showdown. It's crazy. This weekend is not something I am mentally prepared for at all. It's going to be an explosion of emotion, i think. :) It'll be my first time playing club ultimate in 18 months. crazy. It'll be my first time seeing all of my fury teammates (except for manu and arlie - i saw them in europe) since we were together at natties in '08. i'll be on a new team. and while i spent 10 days with them last month and have an idea about what they want to do and what their strategies are, i am still trying to figure out where i go on the field and how to play with everyone on the team.
next weekend I'll be trying out for Ozone. also a weird experience. It'll be the first time i have even met some of the girls on the team. weird. in '06 i almost got a tatoo related to this team. now i know almost nothing about the team. it's very bizarre. i'm psyched about it. but also like "wow." then this wonderful one weekend off (what to do with a free weekend??? Hmmm...). Then off to Boston to meet up with Marjolein for a few days before playing in another Showdown tournament. It just seems busy.

In other news, i am gradually shaping my atlanta life the way i want to. it has taken a while. and i am still searching for my niche. and working to remember that it takes a long while to carve out a niche. this week involved lots of wonderfulness. potluck at our house on friday night followed by board games. saturday was my first trip to the drive in. can't wait to get a gigantic group to head back there, grill out, and enjoy the double feature. sunday was hanging out with mom/dad for a bit. monday jason made this delicious dinner for angela and me. then the 3 of us just hung out and played coloniste. what's better than that? tuesday - hard workout and goalty. tonight - babysat catherine and christopher who are both incredibly adorable. they make me love kids (most of the time anyways. til one of them has a temper tantrum about just about nothing...).

ok - epic long post. but at least it gives an update about where i am (at least physically. i am still kate. so still all over the place emotionally, just like i love to be...).