the difference between bored and content

might actually be quite small.
significant. but small.

seriously - i have asked myself the question over and over this week, "what do you do when you have everything you want?"
(and of course all that pops into my head is "pay back old debts" from coyote ugly, so i keep feeling like i need to whip out a comic book and present it to myself...)

but, honestly, what do you do when you live in the country you want to live in? are as busy as you want to be? have enough time for yourself? can work out every day? can read the NY Times every day? are with someone who really likes you for you? can drink as much coffee as you want every day? have friends within a short biking distance?
what is there to stress about? and, most importantly, what do you do when aren't stressing about life?

a friend of mine sent me an article today from cosmopolitan.com about "overthinking." it talked about how people in our generation are more depressed than any generation before us and suggested that a lot of that has to do with having too many options and too much time to "overthink." even i am slightly ashamed to admit it, i think i agree with cosmopolitan.com.

i now have the time to "overthink" my life. more so than ever before (well - maybe not quite as much time as when i was roaming in circles around europe a year ago, but now, in some ways, it is slightly worse because i know i am not on vacation. but living real life). and i feel overwhelmed with that. i want to label that as "boredom"and start to feel my hours with productive things that make me feel useful and tired and like i am planning things and going places.

but another part of me keeps urging me to sit back and relax and enjoy drinking tea. and chilling out. but when i start to do that, my mind starts racing with a million things. and so i must be bored, right?

where is the balance?

and do all of my posts seem to have a theme lately??? I think my next one should maybe get to the point and just say, "how do i find balance in a new life?"